It has been 2 years since I attended AWE2016 and that happened by divine appointment. My friend, Lay Leng, and I were supposed to go for a short holiday to Taiwan but that didn’t turn out. She asked if I wanted to go Batam to listen to Ps Henson. I had no idea if it was a seminar, a conference or retreat but since it is out of Singapore, maybe I can do some shopping! I was also searching for direction and to find out God’s assignment for me. Little did I know, I was in for a huge surprise.
There was so much taught and shared during those 3 days. I was surely awakened! Although I cannot remember everything, I had such a deep encounter with God. During the ministry time to receive the mantle, Brother TF asked if I was ready and I responded, “I don’t know, I am scared.”
Next thing I knew, I was on the floor. I didn’t know what was happening but suddenly I found myself crying so much and it got worse. The pain was so intense and I felt such a deep sense of failure from past mistakes – failure of making wrong decisions even out of good intentions, failure of disobeying the prompting of the Holy spirit but relying on my own wisdom etc. As I allowed Jesus to heal me and receiving His forgiveness and affirmation, I suddenly saw a vision of FAILURE turning into SUCCESS! Out of that intense pain, I realised that God was aligning my heart to His. That deliverance really set me free for what was to come in 2017. I am so grateful that there was such a sense of freedom for the Holy Spirit to move that night.
I was so impacted by the Awakened, Aligned and Assigned message that in 2017, I made the choice to really seek God by going for AWE2017.2 in December. My eyes were opened to receive and I knew exactly what was happening throughout the entire year. I had quite a few ‘Aha!’ moments:
Aha 1 : As long as I dwell on my own qualities and traits, and think what I am suited for, I will never hear the call of God (Oswald Chambers, My Utmost for His Highest). Throughout the year, there were many things I had to do that was out of my own natural abilities. I just experienced His grace time after time. I learnt to ‘just have an obedient heart’ and to trust Him and His empowerment.
Aha 2: When we are aligned to Him, we will know our assignment. I had restricted and limited assignments to a particular ministry or area of service. How easy it is just to demonstrate love when He creates the opportunity!
Aha 3: Finally I understood that Jesus is drawing me more and more to Him, to look to Him instead of humans. He will be the perfect captain who will be faithful, who will not fail me and will never leave me.
As I look back at a picture taken in 2016, I see myself holding the card “ALIGNED”. God just never stops amazing me!
In conclusion, I want to encourage anyone who is reading my testimony to just have an open mind, trust God and His marvellous ways and sign up for the next Awakening Event. You will not regret it!